I am just the dust of the earth and no one is beneath me – But I am God's dirt.
Before I was born, my Mother was in a TB sanatorium for 5 years in Boonville Arkansas and in her last year they let her out on weekend passes with my Father and that was when I was conceived in 1948 as
I was born June of 1949. Her doctors told her she would have to have an abortion right away, as to carry the baby (me) to full term would kill her and her baby too.
She told them God gave her this baby and IF God willed her to have it she would, and if God willed her or the baby to die it would be God’s will and NOT theirs.
So, I was dedicated to God even before I was born. Thank You Mother.
That building still stands today in Boonville Arkansas and it is still the tallest building in Boonville.
I started having trouble with my left knee after an accident in Oroville CA in 2007 and the MRI showed I had severe meniscus damage in my left knee. So I was not able to work.
I was put on Workers Comp. So then my wife and I started saving to move to Arkansas at that point.
When we moved to Arkansas in 2008 my wife made friends with a co-worker at the big box store. And my wife’s friend started asking her to go to church with her.
And of course my wife would ask me, as she didn’t want to go to church without me.
I told her IF she wanted to go to church that bad we would go to her friend’s church. As it was a little Pentecost church out in the country in rural Arkansas and this was about 2013.
I thought I could sit on a back pew, pitch in some change in the offering plate and I could do like my Father did and just kind of skate through unseen and unknown. But God saw me sitting there and God had other plans for me.
About 2014 I heard my minister say a prayer that I though was unique and interesting. Now I wanted to do something for my church, I saw others mow the lawn, clean the church and other things.
BUT with my left knee problems I could not mow the lawn or clean the church. SO I repeated the prayer I heard from my minister:
‘GOD USE ME, MOLD ME LIKE THE CLAY ON THE POTTERS WHEEL, INTO ANYTHING THAT IS PLEASING TO YOU LORD, AND THEN I PRAY YOU FILL MY CUP TO OVERFLOWING WITH YOUR SPIRIT'.
God heard my prayer and God answered my prayer in a BIG WAY.
Why does God always choose someone for a work (a job) who seems the least qualified for the job.
I am not a public speaker, I do not like being in the lime light, I do NOT like being on stage, so it would stand to reason I would NEVER get up in front of an audience and speak, (But to sing a song ‘ ME NEVER’!!!)
About mid 2014 I started having Tribulation and End of Days dreams.
And when I was having these dreams I started praying and praying hard and long on my knees. And on my knees was very hard for me with my left knee problems.
Quite a few times my wife would walk in on my praying and crying and I was crying so hard. I was sobbing and tears were flowing down my face, down my chest and still
I sobbed so hard it was like crying when you have lost your Mother or a child.
My wife would ask about my crying, being quite concerned about my sobbing and all I could say through my tears was:
‘I KNOW WHAT IS COMING’
‘A LOT OF PEOPLE ARE GOING TO GET HURT’.
Feb. 28, 2015 I had knee replacement surgery on my left knee and after 4 months I was still walking with a cane and limping around but I was making progress, but it was slow.
I started getting a lot more contact from the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit told me in my hart and in my head that I was to be a Watchman for Jesus and warn the people.
I started seeing Watchman videos on youtube (when I didn’t even do a search for Watchmen). I had no idea what a Watchman did and no interest in being a Watchman.
I was shown scripture which was Ezekiel 33: 1-9.
I was told it was important that I read verse 6
Ezekiel 33: 1 through 9
1 Again the word of the Lord came unto me, saying,
2 Son of man, speak to the children of thy people, and say unto them, When I bring the sword upon a land, if the people of the land take a man of their coasts, and set him for their watchman:
3 If when he seeth the sword come upon the land, he blow the trumpet, and warn the people;
4 Then whosoever heareth the sound of the trumpet, and taketh not warning; if the sword come, and take him away, his blood shall be upon his own head.
5 He heard the sound of the trumpet, and took not warning; his blood shall be upon him. But he that taketh warning shall deliver his soul.
* 6 But if the watchman see the sword come, and blow not the trumpet, and the people be not warned; if the sword come, and take any person from among them,
he is taken away in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at the watchman's hand.
7 So thou, O son of man, I have set thee a watchman unto the house of Israel; therefore thou shalt hear the word at my mouth, and warn them from me.
8 When I say unto the wicked, O wicked man, thou shalt surely die; if thou dost not speak to warn the wicked from his way, that wicked man shall die in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at thine hand.
9 Nevertheless, if thou warn the wicked of his way to turn from it; if he do not turn from his way, he shall die in his iniquity; but thou hast delivered thy soul.
I prayed; Lord, who am I that anyone should listen to me, I am not a Minister, Deacon or even a Sunday School teacher. But the Lord was persistent and told me: “I CHOSE YOU’.
But I still prayed: ‘LORD, NO NOT ME, PLEASE NOT ME, I CAN NOT DO THIS’.
This went on for several weeks and almost every night with me sobbing and telling the Lord NO, that I could not do it, as I was NOT a public speaker.
But the Lord told me: ‘MOSES WAS NOT A PUBLIC SPEAKER EITHER, AS HE HAD A SERIOUS STUTTER, SO I WAS IN GOOD COMPANY'.
THEN on the night of June 28, 2015 with tears streaming down my face I relented and I told God, ‘I WOULD TRY’ to give his message that He put in my heart to speak.
That was NOT the answer God was looking for.
Four hours later I woke up at 6 AM as I could not sleep, so I got up out of bed and went into the kitchen to make coffee.
I stepped onto a wet spot on my kitchen floor and both my feet went out from under me and I fell on my kitchen floor onto the very same knee I had surgery on 4 months before.
I laid on my kitchen floor screaming in dire agonizing, excruciating pain until the ambulance took me to the hospital where they gave me a shot of morphine to calm me down.
The X-rays they took of my left knee did not show any damage to the implant or the bone or the connection with the implant to the bone. How Could That Be? I do not know but God knows.
I know what you are thinking, that it was just a coincidence. But I am reminded that there are NO coincidences when it comes to God.
And it was exactly 4 hours after I basically told God (NO again) that I found my self sprawled out on my kitchen floor screaming in pain.
But then there is this part, about 6 weeks after my fall on my kitchen floor the Holy Spirit again comes to me and reminds me that: ‘YOU DO NOT NEED TO WALK TO DO GOD'S WILL’.
That was like an electric shock hitting me and I realized that the next time I tell God 'NO' I just might not survive the punishment.
I was shown scripture.
Acts 18: 9
Then spoke the Lord to Paul by a night vision, Speak Hold not thy peace.
At the mouth of two witnesses or at the mouth of three witnesses shall a matter be established.
And it shall come to pass in the last days saith God, I will pour out my Spirit upon all flesh; and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams.
Acts 2: 18
And on my servants and on my handmaidens I will pour out in those days of my spirit ; and they shall prophesy.
People who I love and trust have told me to speak.
People would be talking to me and in their conversation they would say:
‘It’s time to Speak’.
The Holy Spirit would give me a dream where someone would tell me: ‘WAKE UP AND TELL THE PEOPLE’.
The Holy Spirit gave me other dreams where a voice told me: 'BE NOT AFRAID, SPEAK'
The Holy Spirit gave me dreams where I was told: 'IT'S TIME TO SPEAK'.
The Holy Spirit also told me: 'I CHOSE YOU'.
The Holy Spirit said to me: 'THIS IS YOUR CALLING'.
One Saturday night the Holy Spirit woke me up and started to give me a message. I quickly jumped up and I grabbed pen and paper from my nightstand.
I began to write what the Holy Spirit gave me. It was only 4 words. But being tired I quickly went back to sleep.
The next day I forgot about the note and we got ready and went to Sunday church and Sunday school. Brother Danny was giving the Sunday School lesson.
While Brother Danny was giving his lesson on two occasions during the lesson he looked right at me and as part of his lesson he said: 'BE NOT AFRAID SPEAK'.
I thought it was a little unusual and I took it as another sign from God to speak.
When I got home from Sunday church I went straight to bed like I normally do to take a nap. But an hour later the Holy Spirit woke me up and reminded me that I had written a note from the Holy Spirit the night before.
I got up out of bed and I found the note, but when I opened it I was shocked and surprised to read: 'BE NOT AFRAID SPEAK'.
THERE ARE NO COINCIDENCES WHEN IT COMES TO GOD!
So I stood up in my church and with tears streaming down my face I spoke and I told them what the Lord had put on my hart to tell them.
I was reminded of Jonah when he told God 'NO' and he ran from God. Well God got his way and Jonah ended up in Nineveh, I ended up in my Nineveh as well. When God will not accepy "NO' as an answer what can you do?
Nothing, you can not barter or negotiate with God, you simply Do As God Commands You To Do.
I have prayed and prayed over my left knee problems. The Holy Spirit told me that one day that God would heal me, but he didn't say when.
Sometimes we try too hard to help God when God has his own plan and we just get in the way of God's plan.
On October 31, 2017 I had a second total knee replacement (ON MY LEFT KNEE AGAIN) with a different doctor and a different implant. I was told that in 3 or 4 months I would be walking around just fine, no limp, no cane.
And here it is a year and a half later and I still can not walk more than 50 yards and that is with much difficulty and pain. And I still can not stand any longer than 10 or 15 minutes.
The question I have is: 'Did I try to circumvent God's punishment or God's Plan?'
I have God's promise that one day I will be healed. Maybe God just want's to keep me humble until then. What ever, is God's plan I am all for it.
We are not to know all things. When we try to help God we almost always get in God's way. I will trust in God, I will put my faith in God.
I do not care about wealth, my house, my car, my money the only thing I care about is being pleasing to God.
Because if I am not pleasing to God then all is lost anyway.
But if I am pleasing to God there is no better place to be if you are on this earth!
If you thought I spend all my time praying over my left knee you would be wrong. I spend half or more of my prayer time glorifying God, I pray for my church members, my pastor and his wife, I pray for my youtube and facebook audiance
I pray for people I know, I pray for my family. I call out names of people who have asked for prayers. I do this on my knees, as hard and as painful as it is for me to get down on my knees I do it to humble myself before God.
Because Almighty God is worthy of all Praise, all Glory and all Honor. I am a big believer in humbling yourself before God, afterall it worked for Nineveh and it will work for you and me.
The way I look at it, if I had no arms, no legs I would roll through the Pearly Gates because I know I will be jumping, dancing, shouting with joy on the other side.
Praise God Almighty, we are going home soon!
God Bless You
We have so little time left. That is why I carry my Bible everywhere I go, out to eat, doctor's office, dentist office everywhere I go I take my Bible with me as it is my witness that I AM A CHRISTIAN,
THAT I AM WASHED IN THE BLOOD. Jesus said that we are a peculiar people unto Him. I want to be THAT peculiar person for Jesus Christ. And that is why I carry my Bible everywhere I go, even to Walmart shopping.
And I say the Blessing over every meal even if I am in a restaurant that serves beer, wine and mixed drinks (I do NOT drink)
But I will place my Bible on the table in that place and I will say the blessing over my meal. You ask: 'Do I Feel Funny?' NO, I DO NOT. Actually THEY should feel uncomfortable in their sin.
But I just might be a witness to someone in the restaurant who I do not even say a word to. My Bible is my witness, my saying the blessing is my witness for my faith in Jesus Christ.
In a situation where you can not speak to others, let your Bible and your actions be your witness.
Remember WE are NOT of this world, we are NOT with this world but we are a peculiar people in Jesus Christ.
I carry my Bible with me where ever I go, out shopping, restaurants, doctors offices everywhere. If you see me out without my Bible it's because I have given my Bible away!
Maybe you should consider 'Picking up your cross (your Bible) and follow Jesus' Remember if you deny Jesus before men Jesus will deny you to the Father.
God Bless you and God keep you
Watchman Tony Lamb